I've recently purchased Casting Crowns latest CD Come to the Well (which, I think everyone should listen to it because it's absolutely fantastic!) and there's a track on there called, Already There.
This year so far has been a huge challenge for me. People I spent 99% of my time with, are off doing their thing for the year or portions of it, leaving me with lots of thinking, praying, and growing to do.
So, as I'm blaring the CD in my truck I start REALLY listening to this song. In my opinion, there's 2 ways to listen to music.
1. Background music - singing along because it's your fav song or you're really convinced you sound
just like Christina Agularia.
2. Where you kind of stop and turn it just a little louder and immediately think deeply of life situations.
My emotions have been a roller coaster lately and not even due to, "girl probs" as my twitter folk could say. It's just a heavy heart I believe. I miss important people deeply and I have a lot of alone time. Then the lines say,
"When I'm lost in the mystery
To You my future is a memoryCause You're already there
You're already there
Standing at the end of my life
Waiting on the other side"
And then it hits me...why do I sit and wonder if everything will turn out ok? Why do I freak out about things that really shouldn't be given more thought than the right amount of syrup to pour on a snow-cone. Because, when you get caught up in your emotions and your feelings, you leave out the One who GAVE you those emotions. I feel like when I get super emotional, that's God's way of saying, "Seeeeee Hol! You really DO need me. Now let's talk."
What never ceases to amaze me, is God is fully aware of every hardship and every pain I'll ever feel by this world. The promise to hold onto is Jer. 29:11.
It's like this...
The Game of Life...childhood fav personally ;) But, you don't know what's going to happen during the whole game, because you don't know what numbers you'll spin or when you're going to get a flat tire. What you do know is sooner than later you'll get to the end and retire in YOUR choice of homes. If we knew exactly how the game would go, we would just take easy routes and "win" the game and be over with it.
God (being all awesome and what not) is waiting at our finish line knowing that we will make it because He has a plan. Your part is trusting Him to get you there.
So that's what I've got to do.
Leave it all behind and come to the well.
Good one Holly. I especially like the part about the game of life. Perhaps when sis gets back home you should bring it over and we can all play.
ReplyDeleteYou have no idea just exactly how much growing you're getting to do this year, and that is a great thing. I'm proud of the way you are seeing it through little sister.